An Adult Story Time

I'm 30 and I'm still not married. I've actually no plans of getting married, just yet. Well, if ever I will meet a guy that suits me, why not? But so far, I'm perfectly okay with dating men from work or from wherever part of the world.

My officemates have been prodding me to take "it" seriously, since I'm no longer that young. But what the heck, it's not about marrying at the right age, or just hitting it off, yeah, with a guy you are not really so sure of. So I'm biding my time, I don't care if I'll still be dating men for life, or the same person I'm seeing right now for the next five years or even 10 years. Well, I doubt, though, if this would one stick to me for that long. Haha!

Anyway, I'm not saying I'm hard to please. It's just that I've learned my lessons. My first love was a disaster. I was 19 when it hit me. We had it going for nearly two years, until he found another. And that another was my bestfriend. Yeah, such a cruel world. It felt then that my heart died.

Back to dating men mode again. Unti the next guy came along. I thought he was "it" already. But again, I was wrong. He was only good when he wanted to be. Well, he did not run away with another woman, he just told me I was too good for him. Pfft! This time, I did not waste a single moment to cry. I just had enough.

So I started dating men once again. Some of them were really cool, while others were either stupid or too full of themselves. Right now I'm dating one of those cool dudes.

I don't know if he is it already. I'm 30 and will be 31 in the next five months. We sometimes talk of future plans and things like getting our own place, et cetera. There's already that whisper of love I'm hearing from him, or however you call it. But with what I've gone through, I think I need to think things over. I have some few reservations on this guy, and I don't want to make mistakes again.

Marriage to me is not all about love. It's living that marriage life. And it's a lifetime commitment. That is just not easy. So I have to use my head on this one.