An Adult Story Time

I have been dating my boyfriend for 4 years this Christmas. It feels like a really long time and when you look at it, it is a really long time. Especially these days when there is so much stress on relationships with this bad economy and all the other issues that brings with it. So for us having made it through these long 4 years is like making it 10 years in a regular and thriving economy. I for one would like to get married with this guy; I don't like the fact that until we do we areconsideredas a dating couple even though we already have achildtogether.

So his answer any time I bring this up is that things are so crazy right now that it is not a good time to be thinking of such things. He says we have to wait until we are stable and doing well economically before he will be ready to make that step. I am not stupid, I know how lame this excuse is, believe me I do. In fact I ask him, and if we are never financially secure, does that mean we will never get married? The way things are going then, I guess he will never marry me and this brings me to think that maybe I need to find myself another man.

It's kind of a bummer to think that I may have to walk away from my 4 year relationship with my boyfriend. When you dedicate so much of your life to someone it's hard to just pick up and walk away, but I wish he would stop treating me like a fling and begin to take some responsibility, or at least have the balls to admit that he will never do it and let me be on my way. I remember when I first met him; he seems such a straight forward, sexy guy. I never thought he would cop out for so long.

So soon I may be dating again, and let me tell you it freaks me out to think about it! Literally I break out in a sweat when I think about dating again, but if he won't move forward then I have to do it. I know that I deserve better and hopefully I can stick to my gins and move on if the need be. I deserve to be happy and in the end so does he.